As everyone already knows, I have been having a lot of trouble with the start of school this year. Anxiety and panic have been a very large part of my days, and I've been calling everyone every day with my problems. Usually when calling people I have been on the edge of very irrational tears. I know that the way I've been feeling has been pretty irrational and crazy, but it's not easy to make that sort of anxiety go away. Even as I work on it, I still get anxious easily and it's frustrating.
But I do know that I have been feeling so much better, and that is solely thanks to everyone in this family. I feel like I haven't expressed my gratitude enough when actually talking to you. Instead it seems like I just keep complaining more. So I just wanted to thank all of you so very much. Thanks for all the advice, thanks for reminding me of what's most important, thanks for listening to me and letting me vent, thanks for telling me how much you love me and thanks for being such a great family.
Dad, you've cheered me up so much with our talks and even when I'm feeling so anxious for no reason, you always keep cheering me up, so thank you.
Amanda, you've talked me through it all and empathized with me. You've helped clear my head and reminded me that I'm not dying just because I'm stressed out.
Mom, you've been so logical and you've helped me feel better just by leaving a message on my phone. Being able to talk to you always cheers up my day.
Caitlin, hearing about your day and talking to you cheers me up. I miss talking and hanging out, I can't wait to come down and visit again.
Trevor and Jamie, having you here in Utah is so nice. I love having you here to come hang out and having you close. I also love seeing Kendra and all the mess she gets into (like trying to trick Jamie into giving her more candy), though I'm sure it's not so fun for you.
I'm sure this is a little (well, a lot) cheesy, but I wanted to tell you all thanks since I haven't really been able to get some thoughts together. I hope everyone reads this and knows how grateful I am for all of my wonderful family.
